Ba-boom, Ba-boom, Ba-boom
My heart.
My heart!
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Something was wrong with my heart. It was not just speeding, it was going berzerk.
pounding so hard, so fast, I thought it might just stop.
STOP.
It lasted 3-4 minutes, and then all of a sudden...
a jolt.
Ba-boom, Ba-boom, ba-boom....back to normal.
This happened to me on Wednesday morning. I was just going about my business and it just starting going. This is actually the second time it has happened. The first time was about 6 months ago, still pregnant with peewee, I called my OB thinking it was pregnancy related. He said not to worry, but if it happened again to go to the E.R. It didn't happen again- until Wednesday.
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I hate going to the doctor for nothing, but since the heart is kind of a big deal- I figured I better get it checked out. So yesterday I went to the Cardiologist. After describing my "episodes" the doctor was fairly certain that I have something called
Supraventricular Tachycardia.
In supraventricular tachycardia, the heart rate is sped up by an abnormal electrical impulse starting in the atria.
The heart beats so fast that the heart muscle cannot relax between contractions. When the chambers don't relax, they cannot contract strongly or fill with enough blood to satisfy the body's needs.
The Dr. explained to me that it is not life threatening, but she of course wanted to do some tests to rule out anything else that may be. Sooo- I had an EKG, then the nurse hooked me up to a fancy little/not little heart monitor that I have to wear for 24 hrs. It has 5 chords, all affixed to different spots on my chest, and one very large pager looking thing I that I've had hooked to my pants all day [cerca 1998, 143-637 haha].
I then went down to the lab to have blood work done. It was crowded, and I sat waiting for quite a while.
Not life threatening.
I texted my husband. Somehow just typing those words brought a whole flood of emotions. I could feel the lump in my throat and my eyes fill with tears. My mind was flooded with fearful thoughts...What if these tests show there is something else wrong with my heart? What if I have a serious condition. My Babies. Life is so fragile. So fleeting. What if I die.
Randomly, I had grabbed my little journal to take with me. This was the Lord, because I never take it anywhere. It is for my morning quiet time to jot down notes, thoughts, prayers, and it is filled with some of my favorite verses. I just sat and flipped through reading verse after verse. I was struck by how many of them had the word heart in them. I felt like I was given a little mini word-study right then and there in the middle of the LabCore waiting room. Others just gave me the peace and reassurance that I needed in that moment. It was a really precious few minutes.
Randomly, I had grabbed my little journal to take with me. This was the Lord, because I never take it anywhere. It is for my morning quiet time to jot down notes, thoughts, prayers, and it is filled with some of my favorite verses. I just sat and flipped through reading verse after verse. I was struck by how many of them had the word heart in them. I felt like I was given a little mini word-study right then and there in the middle of the LabCore waiting room. Others just gave me the peace and reassurance that I needed in that moment. It was a really precious few minutes.
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"A cheerful heart is good medicine, but a crushed spirit dries up the bones."
Prov. 17:22
"Listen closely to my words, do not let them out of your sight. Keep them within your heart, for they are life to those who find them and health to a man's whole body."
Prov. 4:20-22
"For we are God's workmanship, created in Christ Jesus to do good works which God prepared in advance for us to do."
Eph. 2:10
"But let all who take refuge in you be glad; let them ever sing for joy. Spread your protection over them that those who love your name may rejoice in you. For surely O Lord you bless the righteous, you surround them with your favor, as with a shield"
Ps. 5:11-12 [My mom used to pray those verses to us every morning when we would be leaving for school. It is dear to my heart because of that!]
"being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus."
Phil. 1:6
"But I trust in your unfailing love, my heart rejoices in your salvation. I will sing to the Lord, for he has been good to me."
Ps. 13:5
It went on and on. Verse after verse reminded me of God's great love for me, his peace that surpasses all understanding, and the joy that comes from rejoicing in Him and His salvation.
Fear and anxiety are from the enemy, peace and joy are from the Lord. I really believe all these tests will come back fine [I still have to have an ecocardiogram next Friday] but in the meantime, it was a reminder of how fragile and brief our lives can be. We are not promised our health, we are not promised tomorrow, but we are promised salvation and abundant life in Him!
"Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength."
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